Distant

dis·tant (dĭs'tənt) Pronunciation Key
adj.

1. 1. Separate or apart in space.
   2. Far removed; remote
2. Coming from or going to a distance
3. Far removed or apart in time
4. Far apart in relationship
5. Minimally similar
6. Far removed mentally
7. Aloof or chilly

why is it that the closer we get, the harder it is to let go?
it is piss easy for people to say; 'we'll keep in touch' 'we'll still be the same' 'we won't be strangers' 'i'm still there for you'...
but its hard to mean it; and we all know that.
when we blatantly say it; we both know it isn't going to happen; yet that's just a fact that neither of us mention.. because maybe we both want to keep our relationship together that much.
whether it's moving countries or moving schools.. if the common interest or similarity disappears, no matter how hard you try, it's a fact that over a period of time, things will never be as it was before.
i've experienced loss. whether you think it's big or not; you're not in a place to judge. but it is a big loss for me. not being able to keep in touch with a certain friend or being as close to someone.. is a big loss to me. the change in environment; people; whatever it may be changes the person you are. and although i don't believe it; apparently it did for me. you take that long to build up that tight bond between you and that special someone.. and over a couple of weeks; months; years' time, it's so easy to let it slip out of your hands without even realizing it.
until you need that someone's opinion; that someone's voice; perspective. until you realize that you need that someone's little something to help you feel a little better.
until you feel like you need that something, you don't realize that you've lost that something. again, relating to my past blog; taking things for granted.
once in a while's sms, phone call or a meeting may spark things up back to life.. but honestly speaking. how long does that last for?
soon.. neither of you feel the need to bother. neither of you feel the need to. as time passes by, that friendship; that bond has already been replaced by someone who's been there when that someone wasn't. soon the gap is replaced.
people walk in & out of your life. if there is a walk-in; there is definitely a walk-out, no matter how long it is, there is definitely going to be one. it's inevitable. no matter how many times you look back and think you could've tried a little harder to keep that friendship alive; you can't have it back.
because by the point when that thought is in your head; it's already too late.
it is always harder to renew friendship; to carry on the bond.
but it's always a great feeling to have that one session in a while
when you meet up
and re-live those great memories you shared.
to have a little laugh at what you were.
to sit down and have a chat; to talk about what you can be.
to see if he/she can walk back into your life.. in another perspective.
through another door.